Wednesday, September 15, 2010

We're in Knoxville

Hi Everyone! We're at the public library in Farragut, TN, getting caught up with all of you. I have some news, but first- I just have to say that I've been reading all of your blogs. They have made me laugh, and cry, and just generally feel so blessed to be a part of this EA family.
Here's the latest with us...We left yesterday, and hadn't gone far when the Nurse called with our time to arrive for our transfer. We had just gotten off the phone with her, when my husband's phone rang. It was Dr. Keenan. I immediately knew why he was calling, and my intuition was correct. Carol had just started thawing our embryos. Unfortunately, none of them survived the thaw. None. This rarely happens. Clydene said she thinks it may have happened one other time, but it was quite a while ago. Dr. Keenan gave us two options. #1- Start all over again and try to get in on the November transfer schedule. #2- Even though time is short, try to find an anonymous donor. We chose the second option.
Now, instead of having a transfer today, we are scheduled for tomorrow.

What can I tell you? I was disappointed and saddened, but somehow I just knew that this was going to happen. Not because I was pessimistic, but as I was awakening yesterday, I just had the thought...
Thanks to many of your stories, I had this perspective...our embryos were 14 years old. During those 14 years, they have been in limbo. But yesterday, they were set free. They are with Jesus. We prayed for the donor family, for I'm sure this news will be difficult for them as well. But, they can be confident that they did the best they could do to give these embryos a chance at life.
I have a lot of emotions going on, but this is my bottom line. The route we're taking is not one that we would have ever chosen. God knows everything. He knew what was going to happen to our embryos. So, I believe that He has used each detour to get us to these new embryos.

Yesterday was just a crazy sort of day. In addition to the disappointing news, the following events unfolded...
1. I realized when I was packing that I was never given any valuum. So the nurse had to call that in for me. We had to figure out which pharmacy to use in Knoxville etc. etc.
2. Clydene called us with the profile information of about 7 or 8 donors. She read each one to us, while I took notes. That was teamwork! The precious thing was that she prayed with us before we got started. We had just finished praying for the team at NEDC as they were trying to figure out what to do with us.
3. I realized a few more hours down the road, that I packed my PIO, but no syringes! Another call to NEDC!
4. When we got to the pharmacy, we discovered that the nurse had given the pharmacist an incorrect birthdate. Apparently, there is a Christa Winn that lives somewhere in GA. That took a while to figure out. Patience, patience!
5.We finally arrived at our supposed 3-4 star hotel to was not! Name your own price with Priceline- let us down! We checked out this morning.
6. When Byron drew up my shot last night, I realized that I had also forgotten any alcohol swabs! Not a huge deal, but I was starting to wonder what else could go wrong!!!

The great part of yesterday was being able to actually talk to Tracey and Britney on the phone! I was more thankful than ever to have met all of you dear EA sista's!

God is faithful!!!!!!!! Krisa


  1. What an ordeal you've had! I'm so glad that you are still able to transfer with anonymous embryos - it would've been difficult to leave Knoxville with no babies in your belly after all of the medicines and ultrasounds you've already had for this cycle!

    Continuing to pray for you, sister - God IS sovereign! :)

  2. I am so privileged to walk this with you. can't wait to meet you on friday for dinner and pray for the precious babies in your belly. GOD IS IN CONTROL!!!!!!

  3. Wow, I hope it is smooth sailing from here on out!

  4. Wow, what an adventure! I just know that God has the perfect child in mind matched with your parenting skills, and He will guide you to it. He just wanted those babies in heaven with Him first. =)

  5. You have had quite a series of events! I glad it is working out in the end and pray that you will have peace and calm tomorrow.

  6. WOW! What a journey you are having. I thought I was having drama with the mail order pharmacy however after reading your post I don't feel so bad. I am glad that things are working out for you all. Hope you found a better hotel:) You are in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS)) Look forward to reading posts in the coming days!

  7. Wow- what a crazy turn of events! It's good to know that God is in control! I'm so glad you are still able to have a transfer. It's so hard to lose those babies we've never met but it's a comfort to know we'll get to meet them someday. Praying for you!