Warning! It's the middle of the night, so I hope this makes sense!!!
I just wanted to write a little about my sweet husband and the sympathy pains he's been having for me since I've been pregnant. The other morning, I heard him in the bathroom just gagging and heaving away! He came out and said, "I sure will be glad when our morning sickness is over!" This has happened pretty regularly over the past two months. He even had to come home from work early one day because he was so nauseated- for no apparent reason other than he was feeling my pain!
Fortunately, Gracie hasn't had nausea, but she has also been very supportive of her mommy. A few weeks ago, when I was feeling really poorly, she brought a boatload of toys to my bed. Thanks baby! The other day, she wanted me to dance with her or something rather active, and I told her that I just didn't feel very well. We'd have to do it later. She looked at me and said, "You don't feel well mommy? I hold your hand." And she did! Awwww- that made me feel better! We really try to keep her otherwise occupied when we're doing the injections, but she has popped in on us a few times. So occasionally, when she can tell I don't feel well, she'll say, "Mommy, you don't feel well? Want daddy give you a sot?" That's what she calls shots. :)
When she hears me gagging in the morning, she'll stop what she's doing and ask, "Mommy? You ok?" Yesterday, she went with me to have blood drawn. After the needle was pulled out, she patted my arm gently. It was too sweet!
Thank you Lord, for the love and support of my dear family!!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Our Littlest Lovie
Hi Everyone! Sorry to have been so absent recently. It's been a rough 3 weeks or so. I've really felt cruddy, and have been quite drawn to my bed or comfy chair at the end of each day! I've felt better this past week, although this weekend has been yucky. (I'm referring to how I feel physically and not life in general.) But, I don't won't to talk about me. Look at our precious little lovie! I cried when the tech handed me this picture. It amazes me that less than 7 weeks ago, this little person was a mass of cells. We are fearfully and wonderfully made!!!
Check out the little arms and legs that are beginning to form. So amazing!!! When my doctor came in, we caught up on Gracie and talked about our new donor family. (This time around has been much less confusing doctor wise than our first pregnancy. With Gracie, the nurses and doctors seemed completely baffled by the idea of embryo adoption. Now, they're pros and act like they have people coming in all the time that have had FET with adopted embryos.) Anyway, once we chatted, she said, "Well, I have nothing brilliant to say!" Meaning, she thought everything looked great and that we were off to great start. Because of the busy holiday season coming up, we went ahead and scheduled my next two appointments and the BIG 18-20 week u/s. It will take place the second week of January. That's when she'll check out every facet of the baby's anatomy and hopefully tell us the sex. Yes- I want to find out!!!
On a whiny note- I am really ready for PIO shots to be over. Last night, my muscle spasmed while Byron was giving the injection. Tears were shed! Thankfully the past two shots have been nearly pain free. I'm glad~ for me and for Byron. He feels horrible when he inflicts pain on his rather fragile wife! However, this thing I know...God is the strength of my life. And with His strength, we will be able to do what we have to do!
With hopes of posting more frequently in the coming weeks.....I'm signing off for now!
Monday, October 11, 2010
The First Glimpse
Today we saw the first glimpse of our little one. Our technician wasn't too talkative, but he did say the sac was exactly where it should be, and said,"See that? That's the heart beating." It was so tiny, beautiful, and amazing.
I was tearful to see just one, and at the same time relieved. I hope you understand that statement. I don't know why I was worried about the possibility of multiples. Last week, I felt God was reminding me that He would be my strength. Simple, I know, but when you're almost 45, pregnant, work full time, and have a two year old....it comes as a wonderful comfort. This past weekend, in the midst of nausea and total exhaustion, I heard Him say, "Trust me. Just trust me." Again, so simple, but those words surrounded me like a cozy blanket. Our God is good, and I am thankful for His presence.
I was tearful to see just one, and at the same time relieved. I hope you understand that statement. I don't know why I was worried about the possibility of multiples. Last week, I felt God was reminding me that He would be my strength. Simple, I know, but when you're almost 45, pregnant, work full time, and have a two year old....it comes as a wonderful comfort. This past weekend, in the midst of nausea and total exhaustion, I heard Him say, "Trust me. Just trust me." Again, so simple, but those words surrounded me like a cozy blanket. Our God is good, and I am thankful for His presence.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Once More...
I am humbled to tell you that we are pregnant! My hcg was 81 today! I found out at work, around 2:30. I'm exhausted from the waiting! I would have loved to have had the time to fall on my face and just cry- giving thanks to God for this amazing news. Instead, I took a secret phone call in my storage closet. This 44 year old mommy is going to be a mommy again! I am so thankful! Thank you all for your fervant prayers!A Note to my NEDC EA mommies....Check your orders for bloodwork. Mine didn't have a diagnosis code checked. The person behind the desk closed his eyes and his ears so that I could take care of that. Your phlebotomist may not be so obliging. :)
Saturday, September 25, 2010
In the Waiting...
This past Monday, I didn't think that I could possibly wait seven more days to find out the results of our FET. But, alas, the week was full, busy, and actually went by rather quickly. Now it's Saturday and I only have a few more days to go until our Beta results on Monday.
Just to let you know, I am pretty sure that I am pregnant! I really, really wish that I would have written down how I felt during the 2ww, three years ago, but I didn't. And, even though it wasn't that long ago, I can't remember any specific symptoms, other than feeling extremely tired. This time around, I've felt a tightness in my abdomen since last Friday, queasiness, pings in my abdomen, and starting Tuesday night, the heavy- heavy-heavy tiredness that I've only felt when I have taken a muscle relaxer OR during my first trimester with Gracie. So----I think it's going to be good news!
This may not make sense. I've alluded to it before, but it seems our challenges have always been in the days, weeks, months and years prior to our transfer. I've always believed that if I could get past all of the hindrances, obstacles, road blocks etc., etc., to receiving our embryos, that they would flourish once they were in me. It was during those pre-transfer days that I absolutely poured out my heart before God, and completely surrendered my deams of ever becoming a parent to Him.
I wasn't 100% confident after our first FET, but I was more expectant to be 'expecting' than not. In fact, it wasn't until after Gracie was born that the realization came to me that we could have very easily been in the group of clients that did not get pregnant. This 'eye opener' caused me to thank God again for the miracle of our daughter. In fact, for the first several months of her life, I would cry over her every Monday, out of gratitude to God for her life. (She was born on a Monday.) I still tear up when I look at the pictures from the day she was born. It was such an incredible, amazing experience. On that day, I was in the midst of a real life miracle, and it was awesome! I know I'm totally taking a "bunny trail" here, but I must say that Gracie did flourish inside of my womb. She weighed 10 pounds, 5 ounces, and our OB/GYN said that her placenta was the largest singleton placenta she'd ever seen!
I have have had worries this week. Most of them are goofy, like worrying if I should be worrying about NOT being pregnant. But, I've spent a lot of time thinking and praying about my fellow 2ww'ers/my EA blogging sisters. This morning I woke up with a song on my heart.
It's called, In the Waiting, by Shannon Wexelburg. Here's the chorus-
You are the waiting.
In that moment of my life, when my faith and hope collide.
While my heart's anticipating, just how and when You'll move, that's when You prove.
You are in the waiting too.
It's a beautiful song, written during Shannon's time of surrendering her will to the Father's plan. She and her husband have a moving story of how God walked them through their infertility. Here's a link to her adoption story.
https://www.shannonwexelberg.com/index.cfm/pageid/957/index.html
My husband just asked what I was writing about, and in answer, I said, "I'm kind of rambling." Please forgive me! But I just wanted to talk! More than anything, I want to say that I have known God to be faithful in the Waiting~ My first waiting period was over 20 years, this one has been 3 years. I know that He will carry me through the next two days of waiting, and He will do the same for you! (No matter what you may be waiting for at this time in your life.!)
As always, I am so thankful for the friends that God has brought into my life- the ones I get to see on a fairly regular basis and those that I know through blogging. My life is blessed because of you! Krisa
Just to let you know, I am pretty sure that I am pregnant! I really, really wish that I would have written down how I felt during the 2ww, three years ago, but I didn't. And, even though it wasn't that long ago, I can't remember any specific symptoms, other than feeling extremely tired. This time around, I've felt a tightness in my abdomen since last Friday, queasiness, pings in my abdomen, and starting Tuesday night, the heavy- heavy-heavy tiredness that I've only felt when I have taken a muscle relaxer OR during my first trimester with Gracie. So----I think it's going to be good news!
This may not make sense. I've alluded to it before, but it seems our challenges have always been in the days, weeks, months and years prior to our transfer. I've always believed that if I could get past all of the hindrances, obstacles, road blocks etc., etc., to receiving our embryos, that they would flourish once they were in me. It was during those pre-transfer days that I absolutely poured out my heart before God, and completely surrendered my deams of ever becoming a parent to Him.
I wasn't 100% confident after our first FET, but I was more expectant to be 'expecting' than not. In fact, it wasn't until after Gracie was born that the realization came to me that we could have very easily been in the group of clients that did not get pregnant. This 'eye opener' caused me to thank God again for the miracle of our daughter. In fact, for the first several months of her life, I would cry over her every Monday, out of gratitude to God for her life. (She was born on a Monday.) I still tear up when I look at the pictures from the day she was born. It was such an incredible, amazing experience. On that day, I was in the midst of a real life miracle, and it was awesome! I know I'm totally taking a "bunny trail" here, but I must say that Gracie did flourish inside of my womb. She weighed 10 pounds, 5 ounces, and our OB/GYN said that her placenta was the largest singleton placenta she'd ever seen!
I have have had worries this week. Most of them are goofy, like worrying if I should be worrying about NOT being pregnant. But, I've spent a lot of time thinking and praying about my fellow 2ww'ers/my EA blogging sisters. This morning I woke up with a song on my heart.
It's called, In the Waiting, by Shannon Wexelburg. Here's the chorus-
You are the waiting.
In that moment of my life, when my faith and hope collide.
While my heart's anticipating, just how and when You'll move, that's when You prove.
You are in the waiting too.
It's a beautiful song, written during Shannon's time of surrendering her will to the Father's plan. She and her husband have a moving story of how God walked them through their infertility. Here's a link to her adoption story.
https://www.shannonwexelberg.com/index.cfm/pageid/957/index.html
My husband just asked what I was writing about, and in answer, I said, "I'm kind of rambling." Please forgive me! But I just wanted to talk! More than anything, I want to say that I have known God to be faithful in the Waiting~ My first waiting period was over 20 years, this one has been 3 years. I know that He will carry me through the next two days of waiting, and He will do the same for you! (No matter what you may be waiting for at this time in your life.!)
As always, I am so thankful for the friends that God has brought into my life- the ones I get to see on a fairly regular basis and those that I know through blogging. My life is blessed because of you! Krisa
Friday, September 17, 2010
Two Precious Embryos!
Yesterday was our day!!! Our appt. was at 12:45. We slept late. Well, I tried to sleep late. I actually awakened around 5, and slept off and on until 9:00! We "poked" around, and then had a lovely brunch around 11:30. Actually, just to add to my list of things forgotten, I will tell you this. I brought my ipod so that I would have some of my favorite music to listen to during the transfer. I even brought the charger, but failed to bring the cord that you connect to the charger! So, we did have to stop at Best Buy before our meal and make a small purchase!
On our way to the clinic, we had one more obstacle. The road we needed to take was closed!!! We had given ourselves 15 minutes to get there, which would have been plenty of time, but the police officer directing traffic detoured us! We ended up being a few minutes late!!! Who is late for their frozen embryo transfer???? Fortunately, I had already taken my valuum and it didn't phase me too much!
Once we finally got back to the back, we received happy, happy news! Carol(the embryologist) introduced us to our embryos. She thawed the two from our first choice donor and both survived! They are blastocysts and were graded 3AA, and 2AB. I found out later that at the time of transfer they had expanded even further and were 5AA, and 4AB! Carol said they looked wonderful. Then, we got the bill for the fees associated with the 4 donors we had chosen on Tuesday. If they had needed to use all of those embryos, the fee would have been over $1000. However, the fees for our first choice totalled $4.07! I was so happy, and felt so blessed by God!
I actually didn't go back for the transfer until about 2:00. They were really busy yesterday. I was their last patient for the day. The first part of the procedure was not pleasant at all, but the nurses were very comforting and kind to me. Once we got past that part, I was ok. Once Dr. Keenan stood up and I knew we were finished, the tears of joy began to flow! What a journey, but we made it. And now, we have two little ones inside my womb.
Thank you for all your heartfelt prayers on our behalf!
One more obstacle....we realized that since we were staying an additional day, we were going to run out of Progesterone in oil. We were asking the nurse if they could call in another prescription for it, but were told that there was only one pharmacy in Knoxville that might have it in stock, but that was unlikely. Thankfully, the patient next to us overheard our conversation. They live locally and offered to sell us one of their extra vials!
Soooooo.... here's my advise- Google your hotel (if you're unfamiliar with it and make sure it really is what Priceline says it is), Pack extra PIO, don't forget the syringes, look at your directions for embryo transfer right now and see if you have all of the prescribed medications that you'll need (like valuum), if you're taking your camera- bring the battery charger (I forgot that too!), and if you are bringing an ipod- make sure you have the charger and cord. Leave for the clinic 30 minutes early, even though it's 10 minutes away. And finally- TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART- LEAN NOT IN YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT!!!!!
On our way to the clinic, we had one more obstacle. The road we needed to take was closed!!! We had given ourselves 15 minutes to get there, which would have been plenty of time, but the police officer directing traffic detoured us! We ended up being a few minutes late!!! Who is late for their frozen embryo transfer???? Fortunately, I had already taken my valuum and it didn't phase me too much!
Once we finally got back to the back, we received happy, happy news! Carol(the embryologist) introduced us to our embryos. She thawed the two from our first choice donor and both survived! They are blastocysts and were graded 3AA, and 2AB. I found out later that at the time of transfer they had expanded even further and were 5AA, and 4AB! Carol said they looked wonderful. Then, we got the bill for the fees associated with the 4 donors we had chosen on Tuesday. If they had needed to use all of those embryos, the fee would have been over $1000. However, the fees for our first choice totalled $4.07! I was so happy, and felt so blessed by God!
I actually didn't go back for the transfer until about 2:00. They were really busy yesterday. I was their last patient for the day. The first part of the procedure was not pleasant at all, but the nurses were very comforting and kind to me. Once we got past that part, I was ok. Once Dr. Keenan stood up and I knew we were finished, the tears of joy began to flow! What a journey, but we made it. And now, we have two little ones inside my womb.
Thank you for all your heartfelt prayers on our behalf!
One more obstacle....we realized that since we were staying an additional day, we were going to run out of Progesterone in oil. We were asking the nurse if they could call in another prescription for it, but were told that there was only one pharmacy in Knoxville that might have it in stock, but that was unlikely. Thankfully, the patient next to us overheard our conversation. They live locally and offered to sell us one of their extra vials!
Soooooo.... here's my advise- Google your hotel (if you're unfamiliar with it and make sure it really is what Priceline says it is), Pack extra PIO, don't forget the syringes, look at your directions for embryo transfer right now and see if you have all of the prescribed medications that you'll need (like valuum), if you're taking your camera- bring the battery charger (I forgot that too!), and if you are bringing an ipod- make sure you have the charger and cord. Leave for the clinic 30 minutes early, even though it's 10 minutes away. And finally- TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART- LEAN NOT IN YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT!!!!!
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